Like a language, heka opens up new experiences and perspectives on my relationship with the ntjrw with each new rule that I learn. Magic has rules- just like any other force, it is neat and orderly within it's own world even if the map and key to its "world" don't necessarily match up very neatly with our own. It's just that learning those rules can be difficult. Having a teacher can help, but it is still difficult because the only way to really learn the language of magic is by "cultural immersion" in your system of choice. The best way to learn a language is to simply confine yourself to an environment where no other language is spoken, and you eventually pick it up out of necessity. Similarly, to learn heka you must jump into the world of Kemetic magic and simply be there until it becomes a part of you; until you learn to sense its presence and understand its logic. That can be frightening and frustrating all at the same time.
I ordered a book recently- "The Mechanics of Ancient Egyptian Magical Practice" by Robert K Ritner.^_^ It sounds like an interesting book, and even if I don't understand it all now, I still hope that it may prove helpful to me later. When it arrives, and I've had a chance to read some of it, I hope to continue this discussion on the value of heka in modern Kemetic religion.